Anticipation and a HUGE challenge

I've been holding steady with lots of company in and out of town but when Mom and Dad head home on the 5th of July.......It's a whole new beginning!!!!! And I have a great big challenge to focus on.

First triathlon --- June 5, 2011 in Buffalo, MN

I'm so excited!!!! I'll be training for it with a couple co-workers who want to do their first Tri as well. I can hardly believe it! After more than 5 years, I've finally found people to train with.

SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!

Getting better

Although I haven't been absolutely perfect on my eating the last couple days, I have been totally PRESENT while eating....and that has been a huge victory. The huge victory is that I've realized when I am "present" while eating I eat less and I'm still satisfied. I'm back to walking on breaks which is nice and my Spin video arrived so I'm looking forward to giving that a go this weekend. Ohh and I took Friday off so I get a 3-day weekend! YEAH!!!!!!

Still a bit rough

Feeling totally out of control of my schedule and dinner food choices with my Mom in town and I continue to struggle with making good food choices while feeling out of control. I really want to start working out right after work but it hasn't happened except once. Crazy thing is that it felt so good it's crazy not to do it consistently. Today I ordered a Spin DVD from amazon.com and I'm excited for that to come. Not much more to update for now. Hopefully my next update will be a more positive one.

Getting back on track

Had a couple perfect days of eating this week which felt really good. Then there were a few days that were pretty out of my control due to rehearsal dinner, wedding dinner and family dinner. The wedding was beautiful and tons of fun. Now it's time to get really serious about cleaning up my eating and ratcheting up the workouts. I already feel better this week, even with not eating perfectly but better. Looking forward to the scale beginning to dropping again.

Off we go!!!

Rough Road

This new challenge has been a rough road!

Since I was the one who organized the new challenge, I thought about delaying the start because even then I knew I wasn't feeling it. But I decided to move ahead because.....well mainly because life keeps moving on whether I'm feeling it or not.

The thing is that that when this challenge began, I still had 2 weeks left to work my second job and every day was a huge struggle. I ended up in that old familiar head space....giving myself permission to make bad food decisions because I was so frustrated! I didn't feel like I had any control over my life. I wanted to walk out of that 2nd job and never go back SO BAD.... but I couldn't. I had to be good to my word and follow through to the end. What does it say about me that when life presents me with a situation out of my control....I eat whatever I want to make myself feel better. Crazy thing is it makes me feels like crap and I keep eating it anyway. Clearly this is not going to get unpacked in one short blog entry but just as clearly, if I'm ever going to be truly healthy, I need to figure out how to be healthy even when I feel trapped by a life circumstance.

Thankfully, today felt like a new day. I had a clear and focused mind for the first time in weeks. I left work, came straight home, had a snack and hopped on the elliptical. Stayed on the elliptical for 45 minutes and then did a few minutes on the spin bike. It felt great! I want to get a spin workout on dvd. I know it will be hard but it will be a huge help once I'm out riding on the road.

It was a really good day!